A song that has encouraged me this week

Take a few minutes and watch the video above (don't forget to mute the jukebox)
I keep hearing this song on the radio by Kutless called That's what Faith Can Do. It lifts me up, it carries me and surrounds me with hope in my sadness. This is how I feel about my faith. "when the world says you can't, it will tell you that you can" The lyrics are on this video. They have spoken to me in the last few days. God has given me grace and peace to face each day. I will post more soon. I have so much to say. Monday, the funeral was a day that honored who Eric was and glorified God. I am so grateful for everyone who helped contribute in so many ways. I have seen God so clearly in these past few weeks and I hope to share with you specifically His goodness.

Be blessed!
Lori

To live is Christ, to die is gain

I was thinking I would wait to post until after the funeral, but I am not sleeping much and writing helps me process things. I think it will help all of you to know when you come to the visitation. I want to first say thank you for all of the love, support, prayers, food and notes of encouragement. Most of the notes all have encouraged me to stay focused on the blessing in this tragedy. I am so comforted that Eric is in heaven right now and when I get sad, I have to turn my thoughts to Eric in heaven seeing God face to face hearing "well done, good and faithful servant", singing at the top of his lungs praises to our God, dancing like a crazy man like he did when I met him in college 19 1/2 years ago. (He was one of those that you had to back up and make a circle around so he wouldn't knock you down), Playing hockey, football, basketball or baseball and encouraging the whole team, Eating the most savory of foods (by mouth), meeting and becoming instant friends with Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Moses, Paul, John, David (oh, to imagine) and all the prophets and saints and his friends and family that have passed before him, laughing that laugh that we all miss, running circles around everyone in his new body, and seeing colors and things we can't even begin to imagine.
This has been a very emotional week as you can imagine, but I am already feeling his mercies new each morning and sensing the peace that passes all understanding. The day Eric went to be with the Lord, I didn't think I could possibly get through it, I was in shock and disbelief and then I had guilt and if only I did this or that and I thought it would take months or years for God to get me through these things. I need to tell you that I know it will take a long time to really stop hurting in my grief, but God has taken so much of my burdens and given me so much comfort that I couldn't have even imagined that came by the very next morning. Every day is such a gift to each of us and his mercies are new in the morning. This is the way that Eric lived each day and I will continue to trust in God for my strength.
May God's peace and comfort encircle all of you who dearly loved Eric too,
Lori

Details on Visitation and Funeral

The following will appear in the GR Press on Friday and Sunday:

Eric J. Fox, age 40, of Grandville, formerly of Jenison, went to be with his Savior on Wednesday, April 21, 2010 after a courageous, five year battle with ALS. His genuine love of life and for people gave him the ability to make friends in minutes. Eric has fought the good fight, he has finished the race and has kept the faith. He was loved and will be dearly missed by his wife of 14 years, Lori; his children, Zach and Maddie; parents, James and Joan Fox; sister, Julie Fox; brother, Jary (Erica) Fox and their children, Emma and Katelyn; parents-in-law, Steve and Linda Kammeraad; sister-in-law, Kristi (Brian) Rogalske and their children, Ashley, Nathan and Emily; brother-in-law, Kevin (Stephanie) Kammeraad and their children, Carlos and Maria; and many extended family members and friends.

Funeral services will be held Monday at 10:00am at Kentwood Community Church, 1200 60th St. SE, Kentwood with Pastor Rob Reynolds officiating. Interment Fort Custer National Cemetery.

Those who wish may make memorial contributions to ALS Association, or Global Partners c/o Rob and DaNae Reynolds.

Relatives and friends may meet the family Saturday from 7-9 pm, Sunday from 2-4 and 7-9pm at Matthysse-Kuiper-DeGraaf Funeral Home (Grandville) 4145 Chicago Drive SW.

Condolences may be sent online at www.mkdfuneralhome.com or the family’s blog at www.ericjfox.blogspot.com.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

This is Brian, Lori's brother-in-law (Kristi's husband). Eric went to be with our Lord earlier today. Eric was always so excited to be serving our Lord and today he went to be with Him. Please keep Lori, Zach, Maddie and the entire family in your prayers as they grieve the loss of a great husband, father, and most importantly, servant of Christ.

Lori asked if I could make the posting tonight as I'm sure you can understand she is overwhelmed right now.

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. Details of visitation and the funeral will follow. Lori is still trying to get a hold of some individuals and make final arrangements.

A quick update

I have to say that time still seems to go by fast as it is already Spring and it seems like just yesterday it was January and I was so worried if Eric would make it through the night a few times. Early January, Eric's goal was to make it to Zach's 13th birthday and his 40th on January 17th and January 21st respectively. When he did that, he told me he just wanted to make it to Spring. I remember thinking to myself, I don't know if that is possible and even I don't know if I can continue to take care of you until Spring as I was feeling so overwhelmed. Well, God is bigger than my thoughts and fears and here we are enjoying a beautiful Spring day together! God is so good!!! Eric got outside a little bit today and I even washed all my windows today inside and out and Zach and Maddie cleaned the screens and each other with the hose. It was a good day! We were introduced to a new caregiver tonight with Visiting Angels who will be working a few hours in the evening once a week. He seems very nice and very knowledgable and he said he felt like God told him to take this job. I know God is always providing in so many ways and this could be another blessing for our family. We are also starting with a new girl tonight to help for one night a week who we found through prayer and a friend of a friend.
Please pray that this would be a good fit. I am really looking forward to getting a full nights sleep once she is trained.
Other good news is my brother and his family of four are home from Columbia safely. Maria is 2 and adopted from Columbia. Isn't she beautiful!! Carlos is 5 and was adopted from Guatamala when he was 1. They arrived on Tuesday night and me and the kids went to the airport to meet them with my family. It was late so we had a caregiver stay at the house with Eric. They were so tired but glad to be home. I posted pictures above.

Enjoy your Spring break and vacations if you are taking them!
Lori

Go State!!!! Final 4 again!

Daddy Interview

I decided I should do this for dad too so the kids did this interview for Dad about a week ago. Here are their answers. Maddies are first marked with an M and Zach's are second marked with a Z.

Daddy Interview -

1. What is something dad always says to you?
M and Z - I love you!

2. What makes dad happy?
M- a hug. Z- Making him feel loved, spending time with him.

3. What makes dad sad?
M-fotos. Z- not being able to do things he used to be able to do.

4. How does your dad make you laugh?
M- He makes jokes. Z- he jokes around on his computer.

5. What was your dad like as a child?
M- funny. Z- funny, crazy.

6. How old is your dad?
M and Z- 40

7. How tall is your dad?
M- he is tall a lot. Z- 6'3"

8. What is his favorite thing to do?
M- listen to music. Z- hang out with family.

9. What does your dad do when you're not around?
M- watch TV. Z- he watches TV and movies.

10. If your dad becomes famous, what will it be for?
M- singing. Z- writing a book about his life and testimonies living with ALS.

11. What is your dad really good at?
M- driving in his wheelchair. Z- cheering people up, telling people about God.

12. What is your dad not very good at?
M- talking. Z- being patient.

13. What makes you proud of your dad?
M- that he is so nice. Z- he is a great dad that I hope I can be when I grow up.

14. If your dad were a cartoon character, who would he be?
M- I Carly. Z- Fred Flinstone.

15. What do you and your dad do together?
M- play games. Z- we watch TV and movies and talk about life.

16. How are you and your dad the same?
M- curly hair. Z- we are both tall and loving to others.

17. How are you and your dad different?
M- Eyes. Z- I am clumsy like my mom.

18. How do you know your dad loves you?
M- because he says it to me all the time. Z- He tells me every night before I go to bed and when I get home from school. He shows it during the day.

Mama Interview

I read this on a friend's facebook page about a year ago and decided to have my kids fill it out. Here are their answers. Maddie's are first and marked M and Zach's are second marked Z. I loved their answers and plan to have them fill it out every year.

Mama Interview -

1. What is something mom always says to you?
M- No. Z- I love you.

2. What makes mom happy?
M- when I'm good. Z- spending time with her, getting a good deal!

3. What makes mom sad?
M- if daddy would die. Z- sad movies.

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
M- Tickling me. Z- she is always good at joking around.

5. What was your mom like as a child?
M- she was like me - crazy. Z- funny, clumsy :)

6. How old is your mom?
M- 55 0r 40. Z- 38

7. How tall is your mom?
M- 15ft tall. Z- 5 foot.

8. What is her favorite thing to do?
M- play with me. Z- be with family.

9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
M- on the computer paying bills. Z- go shopping and help dad.

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
M- having a lot of money so we could buy anything. Z- a famous actor or famous Christian book author.

11. What is your mom really good at?
M- typing and going on the phone. Z- telling people about God, Math

12. What is your mom not very good at?
M- she drops a lot of stuff. Z- trying to be cool :)

13. What does your mom do for her job?
M- I don't know, Bible Study, teach? Z- helps dad, part time accountant.

14. What's your mom's favorite food?
M- fruits and vegatables. Z- Salad. (sounds healthy, you think I'd be skinnier)

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
M- that you play with me. Z- she is able to help my dad.

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
M- Hannah Montanna. Z- Wilma Flinstone.

17. What do you and your mom do together?
M- puzzles, excercise. Z- we go on dates and hang out together every other Tuesday.

18. How are you and your mom the same?
M- Brown eyes. Z- we are both clumsy and funny.

19. How are you and your mom different?
M- mom has earrings and sparkly makeup and I don't. Z- I am 13 and she is 38. I'm in school and she isn't.

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
M- when she kisses me all over and tells me. Z- she tells me every night and then some.

21.Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
Unanamous - COSTCO!

Hope you enjoyed this. If you want me to email you the blank document to try it yourself, let me know.
Lori
P.S. I am sitting outside typing this, enjoying this beautiful day God has given us! I love Spring! I have the window open so I can hear Eric's Dynavox and have gone in about 4 times for him now, but I don't care if I can be outside for just a bit, I will take it!

Feeling kind of down and weary... confessions of a caregiver

It has been a while since our last post. Things have actually been going pretty well. Eric has been doing pretty well and his spirits have been lifted up. We have had a few visitors and have really enjoyed utilizing the Dynavox for communication. It has really helped us out and we use it daily as even I struggle to understand him now. One thing you hear more often then not with ALS is to get things BEFORE you need them because you don't know when you will lose an ability and suddenly be in need. I think we have done well in mostly staying ahead of the disease in this way. God has been good and gracious to us and provided our needs so abundantly. It is so clear when we look back over the span of this disease. It can only be explained by God. There are no coincidences with God.
Sometimes, however, I let the moment suck me in or even worse the uncertain future. We always have rough nights. Last night was justEric is quite uncomfortable most of the night and is unable to sleep continuously for a night. I don't even remember when the last full night sleep was. Each night varies some, but usually consists of getting up 2-3 times every 1-3 hours and each time we are up it is usually for about half an hour. At this point, we both have a hard time falling back to sleep. We have varied the medications for Eric and some help and some do not. It is so frustrating to me that I can't make him comfortable. Last night, I just started crying uncontrollably for a long time. I felt like I was beyond myself and I know that made Eric sad for me too. When I am beyond myself, I can only rely on God and others he puts in our lives to help us. I am trying to focus on some verses to keep me strong as I sometimes feel like I can't do this on my own. Here are some that have encouraged me and I am trying to commit them to memory for when Satan shoots his fiery darts at me and tells me I can't.

Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength

Ephesians 3:16-21
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Isaiah 40:31

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Psalm 46:1

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

I could go on with so many more that come to my mind, but these are a few of my favorites. I have learned to treasure God's word and it's promises for me. I know they are true and that is why I know we can get through each day with His help.
I have read a few books for caregivers or care for the terminally ill. Most of them I skim as I feel they are more geared for taking care of your elderly parents and it is not relative to me. I have found one I can relate some too and that encouraged me called Precious Lord, take my hand by Shellie Beach and the second one she wrote called Ambushed by Grace had a quote I just loved by Robertson McQuilken. It says "Love takes the sting out of duty." This sums it up for me. I made a commitment to Eric and a covanant to God in our wedding vows, "for better,for worse, in sickness and in health, til death do us part." I intend to honor that because I love Eric with all of my heart. I want to encourage all caregivers in whatever role you play as I have walked in your shoes and I know it can be hard. Keep focused on God's promises and not on your opposition. I am reminded again of Joshua and Caleb and their ability to see the promised land and go forward rather than the other 10 who only saw opposition and obstacles ahead of them. Can you imagine what they would have missed out on? I know God has good things in store for me, Eric and all of his children. I already feel better reminding myself of what I already know. When you are in it, some days it's just easy to have a pity party for yourself.
Please pray for Eric for comfort and encouragement in his battle with ALS and for me for strength for each day and a gentle spirit at night. We will be trying some new caregivers at night this week I hope. Please pray that it goes well and we find a suitable fit for care for Eric at night so I can get some sleep one night a week.
Have a good week. Spring is here! ( I think )
Lori

He Is With You

YouTube - He Is With You
Check out the link above (be sure to pause the jukebox first at the top of our blog)
My sister posted this link above on her blog the other day for the song He is With You. I have never heard the song, but Eric and I watched it with tears and loved it! What a great reminder that no matter what we are going through, we are not alone. God is with us through every step of our journey in life. My favorite part is Joy comes in the morning because that is so true. When we have a bad day, God always comes through and shows us the joy in our life. We had a rough start to last week and another emotional day with Eric being very non responsive. We have tied it to the possible effects that Ativan had on his system so we have cut that out. The last part of this week has been really good. Eric started using his Dynavox to communicate with us and has been "talking" up a storm and I love it. We've had some visitors too who enjoyed talking with Eric and laughing as well at his humorous commments. It is good to have Eric back and making an effort (it takes more for him to do this than to sit by himself quietly) to spend time with family and friends. It's good to laugh again.
My brother, Kevin and his family are in Columbia right now with their newly adopted daughter Maria and we were able to "meet" her last night on Skype which was so cool! She is beautiful! Pray for them as they get to know each other and bond together.
My Sister is almost done with radiation but is having horrible burns and side effects on her neck so keep her in your prayers too.
Both of their blogs are on the side of our blog if you want to check up on them.
ALso pray for Eric's dad as he is going tomorrow to a pain clinic to help with his pain.
Praying that God will bless us with a good week. We will miss the Olympics being on as we have enjoyed watching them together as a family.
Blessings to all of you!
Lori

Communication, more than just talking ... an insight to ALS patients from a wife who cares

Someone asked me the other day about how to read Eric's responses to some particular visits and their questions were very valid. As you know, I can read Eric better than anyone. Lately, I tend to play offense and defense for Eric in these areas. He does not talk as much as it does take more effort physically. His smile or nod is often his response or it can be that he is processing his response. He takes longer to reply as well as even trying to articulate what he wants to say takes more time. I have had to learn this as I await his reply. I am usually in a hurry wanting a yes or no answer (this is mostly when I am helping him with a need). But when he has something to say, I stop what I am doing and look at his face as I wait for him to talk to me.

Here's the tough part, most people are social creatures and talking is such a huge part of how we communicate. When we don't get a response, we instantly start to process what is wrong, what are they thinking, are they upset with me? This makes most people uncomfortable so they either talk more or leave the situation. Many people can't understand Eric as well and this takes great effort or interpretation (usually by me). When there is a lot of noise or commotion going on around, this is even harder, of course. This is why we have tended to have less people over and done more one on one visits. Things like watching big sporting events are an exception because these can be events to enjoy together, but even that tends to be a bit much for Eric to to take in. Eric had a lot of fun having everyone over for Super bowl, but couldn't do that all the time like he used to. They say that when you loose one sense, your others are heightened, like when you can't see, you can hear sharper. Eric hasn't necessarily lost a specific sense as much as abilities, but his hearing is sharp as a tack. He hears the mail truck from a mile away and always amazes me on what he can hear that I don't. This can be good, but also bad as he can sit in a room with a lot of things going on like conversations, kids playing or screaming, phones ringing, washing machine going, dog barking and he is on complete overload. We tend to tune in to one thing and block out the others, but Eric is not able to do that. I try to be cautious with this when people are here to keep things more low key and quiet. Those of you who have known Eric, know that he used to be able to do everthing at once and the more people the better, the more going on the better and the louder the music, the better, etc. It's really hard to see Eric this way as it is so different than the way it used to be, but I understand it and want to make things easier for him. It is really part of the disease as the more people I have met or talked to have felt the same way and can relate. This is why I thought I should post this to help you understand the disease and how it affects people. I also want people who do visit to feel comfortable as they understand what Eric is going through better.
To understand what Eric is saying or feeling, you need to look right at him and focus on what he is saying, reading his lips and expressions and be patient for his response (we tend to want to finish other's sentences with what we think they will say and that can be helpful or frustrating). Sometimes he is fine and doesn't have anything to say and sometimes he doesn't say what he wants because there is no pause for his response. Over a year ago, we met a family in Monroe at an ALS skate benefit and the husband had ALS and his speech was affected. His wife and daughter were often finishing his sentences for him which he would nod approval of. When I was talking to him on my own, I felt this draw to look at his face and listen attentively to what he was saying and I was surprised how well I could understand him and respond to him in a kind way. I felt so strongly that he just wanted to be heard and that most people probably brushed him off quickly or looked to his spouse for translation. I was prepared back then for what may come with Eric and what he might feel like when he loses the ability to communicate.
The people who have been around the most are the ones he tends to share more with and they become more comfortable with the changes going on with Eric too.
Sometimes it's OK to come over and just be here with Eric, whether watching a movie, rubbing his aching elbows, back or feet, praying with him, reading a book to him or just giving him a hug or squeezing his hand. We don't always have to talk to show love which is strange for most people, because we are social by nature (me especially) I love to talk!
If you are reading this and feel like, I have never come over to visit, please don't feel like you need to now, know that your prayers, emails and cards are a great way to show your love and support. We are blessed and have wonderful friends and family surrounding us.
Lastly, with the way Eric's chair is driven now, he has a device around his neck that steers his chair. Some people are afraid to hug him as this is in the way. Eric still appreciates hugs as we all need touch. You can ask him if it's OK to hug him and he will let you know if it's safe to give him a squeeze. My mom hugged him once with his chair on and they almost both went for a ride :).
I hope this helps not just to understand what Eric is feeling, but also help you unserstand others with ALS or similar disabilities.
Love,
Lori

30 days to live message from Life Church

LifeChurch.tv - Message Archive - 30 Days to Live

We have been watching a lot of sermons on line from Life Churches main campus based out of Oklahoma and have watched some really powerful messages. Click on the link above from the Series 30 days to live that we watched this morning that had a man who had ALS speak who reminded me of Eric. The message was so powerful and the series is based on the Verse in Psalm 39:4-5
"Show me, O LORD, my life's end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.

You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man's life is but a breath.

The Pastor also shared advice he was given regarding making decisions. When deciding on what you do with your time, ask yourself would you do it if you only had 30 days to live? Today, I thought again about how we spend our time at home and thought, I want to do things that matter for eternity. We still have opportunities to do things that matter for the Kingdom especially regarding our kids and the people we are in contact with. We can share with so many others through our blog as well.
Take a half an hour and watch this message from the red link at the top of this post, it is powerful and it will give you a new perspective on your life and what is really important. Don't forget to pause the jukebox at the top of the blog first so you cn hear the message without music over top of it :)

If you want to watch other messages, go to www.lifechurch.tv and go to I want to watch messages and pick a message or series from their archives.

Be blessed,
Lori and Eric

A Marine has requested that we post soon

Our friend Michael has just come home from Marine boot camp and has been waiting patiently for an update. He was here tonight with his family and some other friends for Superbowl which was a nice change of pace for us.
We know it has been a while since our last post. We have had some milestones since then. Zach became a teenager and Eric turned the big 4-0! Thank you for all of the cards, e-mails and calls on Eric's birthday. It was so encouraging all of the love you shared. Since then, things have been relatively normal around here, actually quite boring since it is the dead of winter and Eric is getting cabin fever. It has been a while since he has left the house. When it is so cold, the risk of getting sick and being so cold while he is out offsets the pleasure of actually getting out. We have gotten somewhat into a routine, but you can only watch so many movies, listen to so many podcasts and watch so many games before they all become a blur.
Eric's health is better than last month except that he is just plain uncomfortable most of the time. This is a difficult adjustment to face as I can't help him with this when he can't find a way to get comfortable. It seems like a lost cause which is so frustrating for both of us. I hate seeing him in this state as I know it has to be so hard to handle day after day. We are working on trying to get his chair more comfortable and managing his pain (discomfort). Night time is the worst and I have had a hard time with the way I respond to Eric in the middle of the night. It's like I become someone else and I don't like it, but can't stop myself so please pray that God will give me and Eric supernatural rest. I know when we are weary, He will give us rest.
I have been getting out to the store, running errands etc. a little more since Eric is doing better when we have help here and that has been nice for me, but I wish Eric could get out too. Spring is coming, but not soon enough for us. If we could move somewhere warm, we would do it in a heartbeat!
The kids are doing really good. We are so blessed to have such great kids. We started date nights with mom and I really have enjoyed taking two hours every other week with each kid to spend time with them one on one.
Please pray for Eric's comfort, mood and strength to endure as this disease is taking a toll on his body. Eric and I can really feel your prayers being lifted to the Father on our behalf. I have a wonderful husband who is an amazing man of faith and that is how we get through every day. Still thanking God for every day together and looking for God in the moments even when it seems so dreary and dark.
Longing for the sun to shine again soon,
Lori and Eric

P.S. we thought the blog needed a makeover... what do ya think? It's still a work in progress.

God answers prayers!

I wanted to quick update you since my last post. I updated on a Thursday night over a week ago around midnight and asked only for prayer for Eric. Most of you probably opened the blog sometime on Friday and started praying. Around 9 at night on Friday, it was like Eric woke up from a two day nap. Since then, he has continued to get better than he was and is basically back to the same point he was in December again. His mom and I were very worried about his state. I believe God heard our prayers and restored Eric and is extending his life because he still has work to do here. I still watch Eric be used by God with our kids, people who come into our home, phone calls and connecting people together to do God's work and am still being reminded of what an impact he has had on so many lives from his walk with the Lord. We are still praying for a miracle of healing, and know that while we wait on the Lord, we still have work to do! His work!
Eric started to tolerate his bi-pap that Friday for 6-8 hours at night. Some would say it was his mindset to do it, but he hadn't worn it for more than 30 minutes at a time without needing to have it taken off prior to that so I again believe it was part of answered prayers. We have been sleeping so much more at night and our friend Stephanie is helping us out with the kids in the morning getting off to school which is so wonderful for all of us. The kids love her and she loves them! I am able to get much needed sleep too. Eric's mom has been around a lot helping out too which is so nice. His brother and family have come up two weekends in a row too to help out. We are really being taken care of and we thank all of you who have had a part in that even if it is just by praying. That is so powerful! Keep praying! God is good all the time!
Other quick updates:
Lori: I went to the doctor today after a couple weeks of pain in my right forearm and found out I have tendonitis so I have an arm splint and ibuprofin to help take care of that. Please pray that the pain will go away and it will get better soon.
Zach: Yesterday was Zach's 13th birthday!!! I can't believe we have a teenager in our house!!! He has been growing like crazy and is now taller than me! We had a special day together and Eric gave Zach a special letter he has been working on for him telling him what a fine young man he is turning out to be. He had some guys sleepover last night since Grandville had no school today. He is still playing basketball and started guitar lessons with our pastor.
Maddie: We found a dentist for her in Byron Center (thanks for all the referrals) and had her front tooth looked at. It has been loose for about two months and ended up sticking out crooked in the middle of her gums while the permanant teeth were making their way in. Maddie cried the whole way to the dentist, he took one look at her, numbed it a bit and attempted to pull it. Unfortunately, the stubborn thing didn't come out so he had to go back in with his "tooth puller tool". Oh... was this rough for mom to watch. After I helped hold her hands down, he got it out. After lots of tears, hugs and a trip to Craig's Cruisers for some fun (her reward for being so brave) she is now happy to have it out. He told us that she is a tough orthodontist case and we should get in soon for a referral for braces! She is only 7but going on 13.
We are blessed to have such a wonderful family and blessed to call you friends!
Have a great week!
Lori

We have not posted for a while. After our last post, during the week of Christmas, Eric's breathing was not good and he seemed very lathargic at times. I actually went to bed each night crying thinking he might not wake up. By the following Sunday, he seemed to be so much better. I don't know if something was wrong or he coughed up the problem as he still coughs a lot. I am relieved that he is doing better but still very aware that he could have those problems again as the disease is progressing. This disease is leaving him in a state of pure dependance, which is so hard for all of us.
We have been talking about hospice coming in to help since November at his las ALS clinic appt. We decided we would call them after his feeding tube was put in and we had been trained on using it. Then is was Christmas so we decided to wait til the week after Christmas. They came in last week Monday and we have been meeting the support staff from Faith Hospice in Holland. We have a nurse who comes once a week, a girl to help with personal care two hours a week and a social worker and a Chaplain who came to visit us. It was a bit overwhelming at first, but now it will be what we need, when we need it. Most people think of death when they hear the word Hospice. This is not neccesarily the case for us. They are here to provide care and comfort support for us since Eric has a terminal disease. We know someone with ALS that has had hospice support for some time now. We have no guarantee of tomorrow and are still thanking God for each day he gives us together as always.
Eric is not having a good day today. We have cancelled all of our plans today and he has spent the whole day in the bedroom in his chair. He has been uncomfortable and very tired and weak. It has been a rough week. My sister received news that her cancer has returned and they don't believe it will ever go away. She is starting chemo again next week. Some have said that they think our family is being tested like Job. I have just read the beginning of Job again in my Bible study this week and I don't believe anyone on this earth has been tested as Job has or responded as he did. After his animals, servants and then his children had been killed all within moments of eachother, he responded in Job 1:20-21:
At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said:
"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart.
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."
I try to worship God in the tough times, but I don't find it the first thing I always turn to. God has been a constant comfort to our family and I have also read some verses yesterday in 2 Corinthians that talk about God's comfort. I love all of these verses and I will just reference them as my posts tend to get a little long and I want to finish this post. 2 Corinth 1:4-6, 2 Corinth 2:14, 2 Corinth 4:16-18, and 2 Corinth 12:9.
Eric is not up for visitors lately, but please send your comments, e-mails or phone calls and I will share them with him. Please continue to pray for our family as that is all we really need right now.
Love,
Lori

Article in today's advance and blessings from God

We were blessed to be interviewed by Cathy Runyon at the Advance Newspaper for an article that was printed in today's Advance. She did a wonderful job portraying our life with ALS, but ultimately our hope in Jesus Christ, especially as Christmas approaches this year. If you are local, check it out, if you are not, here is a link to the article on line
http://www.mlive.com/grandvalleyadvance/index.ssf/2009/12/christmas_offers_local_family.html

Eric has been struggling with a cough for some time now and we have not been getting much rest. God has lifted our spirits on Sunday as we were doubly blessed to hear our good friend, Daniel Groves perform at GR First on Sunday with some incredible music to our Lord that drew us closer to Him and then Sunday night when we were again feeling the enemy attack as this disease has become so difficult to bear at times, a bunch of families from our new church came to our house singing Christmas carols with huge smiles on their faces (especially the beautiful children singing loudly in front) Eric was not able to come to the door at that time, but I stood and listened to their beautiful voices and Eric listened from the other room as we both shed tears knowing how much we are loved by so many of you, but most of all knowing that we are loved by God. He sees us when we are hurting and He lifts us up out of the pit and wraps his arms around us in such tangible ways. I had prayed specifically just an hour before that God would show himself to me and He truly did!

This Christmas, lift someone up and show the love of Christ as you celebrate his birth and the true meaning of Christmas!!
Love,
Lori and Eric

I am attaching some photos of us spending some time cuddling with Eric in his hospital bed. He may not be able to sleep in it, but this was the first time Eric was able to put his arms around the kids and me to hold us for a while. Of course, our beloved dog, Prince had to get in there too!

three steps forward...two steps back

Eric has been adjusting to having the feeding tube put in. We were so focused on getting it put in safely, we hadn't thought much about what comes next. While we are still so grateful that the procedure went so well and God's hand of protection was on Eric, it has been hard for Eric to adjust at home. He has not slept in his hospital bed since the surgery and can no longer wear his bi-pap overnight or for very long periods. His feet have swollen up again from sleeping in his chair. He has also started a tickle cough that comes and goes daily and sometimes causes choking. We have started supplementing Eric's meals by feeding tube once or twice a day and we are getting used to that. He continues to eat a softer diet as well. Eric has been very frustrated with this disease lately and his spirit has been very down. I tend to follow suit when he gets this way because we are both again very tired most days. I understand that Eric can't be happy all the time when he suffers through this disease. I often try to imagine how I would feel in his shoes and I don't even know how I would respond. I don't know what we would do if we didn't have Christ's love and His grace in our lives. Eric's dad has returned to the hospital again this week and is now home awaiting surgery in Ann Arbor to be scheduled. My sister had her lymph nodes checked because she felt a lump and although she had a "clean" petscan, the doctor says he is pretty sure it is cancer so it will be removed and biopsied. My grandpa had surgery for his cancer last Friday and they believe they got it all (Praise God) and he is now at a nursing home recovering, but he is very down as well. Life can just be so hard sometimes. You sometimes wonder how much one family can take. The snow has hit hard in Michigan and we have been cooped up inside. We have been enjoying being here all together as family. My kids actually slept with their PJ's backwards, spoons under their pillows and flushed ice cubes down the toilet last night (those of you not from Michigan, these are "supposed to" help school to be cancelled) We actually stayed up very late last night assuming there would be no school and were so glad to be right. My bible study leader checks in with me every week even though I am no longer able to leave for Bible Study for the last month or so, and she shared verses from the study last week in Psalm 73:23-28
It was very encouraging to me and Eric and I wanted to share it with you:
Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.

Sometimes it is so hard to keep our focus on God, but He is the author and perfector of our souls and the One who sustains us through trials. Please pray we keep our eyes on Jesus and for Eric to fight the latest things he is struggling with. It is really hard to see Eric go through this when there is sometimes nothing I can do to help him. I hope you are all staying safe, healthy and warm and are blessed this Christmas season.
Love,
Lori

The surgery was a success and we are home!

Just a quick note to let you know that the surgery went very well. Eric used his bi-pap during the surgery which took about 1 hour including prep time once he was on the table. I was able to help get his mask on after they inserted the tube down his nose and then they let me sit right outside of the room he was in. I was praying and reading the book of John while I waited and felt at peace. I was praising God when they came out and told me it went well and I could go in. We had to stay in recovey for 4 hours so they could monitor him and irrigate his tube and we were able to head home about 5 tonight. Eric said he was hungry when he came out of surgery so we are now finally home eating some food. We will be trained on how to use the tube for the first time tomorrow. Eric is in a lot of pain in the tube area and he was given some vicodin which helped a little. Thank you for your prayers!!! We felt them and are so grateful. Please pray for pain tolerance, rest and no infections.
Thanks prayer warriors!
Love,
Lori and Eric

a quick update on surgery tomorrow

Just sitting here feeding Eric his last meal he is sneaking in before midnight (Kraft Mac n' cheese and peaches). We wanted to send a quick update to let you know that we are feeling at peace about the feeding tube surgery tomorrow and plan on leaving the house at 9 am to go to St Mary's hospital to get prepped for the surgery at 11. We have consulted with the best surgeon for this through our ALS doctor and they feel confident that they can do the surgery and are aware of our wishes. Eric has been tolerating the bipap well at night and will wear it during the procedure. We have also "consulted" our Great Physician in prayer and feel his peace and protection guarding our hearts and minds. Please be in prayer for continued peace, no anxiety as Eric will not be under heavy anesthesia and have more local, no breathing difficulties and a skillful, quick surgery with a speedy recovery.
We appreciate and feel your prayers already. Thanks for the e-mails, phone calls, meals, taking the kids, help with Christmas decorations, visits, prayers and all the love we feel from you all. We are so blessed!
We will try to post as soon as we are home tomorrow to give you an update.
Love,
Lori and Eric
P.S. We had a great time staying at the Amway Grand overnight with the kids!

God gives peace in the tough times

Again, we have had a week of some surprising news about Eric's ALS. 9 days ago, we got the results of our testing we did at the hospital after our clinic visit. We were getting ready to have Eric's family here for our Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner when we got the call. They told us that the ultrasound on Eric's legs came back showing no blood clots which is good. Then they went on to tell us that there is a bit of fluid in his lungs which is not good but he was given an antibiotic to treat any potential infections, but the greatest concern they had was his blood gas test results which measures the levels in his arterial blood coming away from his heart. These tests measured his CO2 levels at 52. They said that 35-45 is normal so he is retaining more CO2 than he should be. They said that he would have to wear his bipap 24/7 that weekend and then check back with them. Wow! We were about to have family over for the weekend and he had to keep his bipap that he had not been able to tolerate on all the time and not be able to communicate with anyone? We sensed the urgency in this so we asked to have Airway Oxygen come out again to help Eric tolerate the bipap. They were out that afternoon and brought another mask and adjusted the levels again and here we go. It was actually good timing to have his family, (mom, dad, sister, brother, sister in law and nieces) here to explain this to and they were able to help that weekend with sitting by Eric and suctioning when he needed it. Because of the foreign object on his face, he was producing excess saliva at least every half hour or so. I didn't think we could do it and 24/7 is just impossible, but Eric was able to get used to it and tolerate it except for at night and while eating and bathing, etc. We had a nice time with his family and I know that this is hard for them to see these changes happening, but they don't regret the time we are able to spend with eachother. Eric has actually been doing much better since implementing all of the treatments ordered. On Tuesday, the hospital bed that we have had for over a month from the VA was finally fixed so that he could sleep on the mattress. He has finally been sleeping in a bed! Praise the Lord! He has been sleeping in his wheelchair for at least six months now and his feet and calfs have been so swollen. After one day in the bed, the swelling has gone down and continues to go down. He actually tolerates the bipap all night since he has been in the bed with little to no secretions and we have been sleeping better than we have in such a long time. These new routines have been very demanding on our time and we are weighing the cost/benefit when it comes to family, friends and being used by God. The Doctors are recommending that Eric get a feeding tube put in as soon as possible, but we have been faced with the reality because of his breathing capacity at this point that doing this procedure could mean he would be sent to ICU and trached during this procedure and be put on a ventilator. We have been spending a lot of time last week getting educated on what these procedures mean and finding out what care is available to us. Eric has decided he does not wish to be on a ventilator for life support and I agreed through many tears that this would not be the way Eric would want to live his life. You can't possibly make this decision until you are faced with the reality of it. Every situation is different whether ALS or any other life threatening situation. We would never judge anyone's decision, nor use other's decisions to make our own. We feel like Eric has a lot of good life left in him and will continue to do these breathing treatments and have opted to schedule the surgery for the feeding tube for Eric on December 1st so that he can get optimal nutrition safely, simply and he will not be spending so much of his day trying to chew his meals. We are trusting God to get Eric through this surgery without a trache. He can use the bipap during the procedure and we will consult more with the Doctors to discuss our wishes and can cancel up until that date if we decide it would become too risky. Please pray with us for this surgery on December 1st! Your prayers are so powerful!
We have just shared with our kids tonight about the surgery and have talked to the kids about eternity and heaven and we all prayed for daddy to be healed and that God would continue to take care of him. We continue to pray for healing for Eric and know that our mighty God is powerful and capable of healing Eric in a moment and we also know that God is sovereign and in His will is where we want to be. We know no matter what, Eric will be delivered from ALS either here on this earth, or God will see him through every step of this disease right until He takes him home into His arms. As hard as this reality is to face, we both know that eternity in heaven is far better than anything we can experience or imagine here on this earth. The hardest thing to face is me and the kids and the loss of a daddy and husband who we love very much. The fact that those who know the Lord and have accepted him as their Savior will see Eric again is such a gift that we can treasure. We pray that Madison will accept this gift as we continue to teach her about Jesus and his sacrifice for our sins. Our purpose has not changed. We want to bring glory to God in the life that we live here on this earth. Thanks for reading as this was a long post with a heavy message, but we desire your prayers and feel so much love and support.
I know some of you will read this and say I don't know how I can help them or I need to spend time with them. God has taken care of so many of our needs and has continually brought people into our lives at the times we need them and we are so blessed. We do want to spend time with family and friends and also want to keep our time with our kids special too so the best thing to do is to send us an e-mail (lorifox@sbcglobal.net) or comment on the blog to encourage us. Our phone sometimes rings all day long and I am not always able to answer it when I am helping Eric or we are setting aside family time. Please leave a message and know that we will try to get back to you as soon as we can and we will try to reply to e-mails as much as we can too. We actually decided to take a small vacation this week over Thanksgiving break. We actually were considering taking a Disney cruise until we researched the cost and cost of flights over the holiday. Yikes! We decided that what we really need is time away with our kids and plan to stay at the Amway Grand in GR and live it up for a few days and relax.
We hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoy time with family and give thanks for all that we have!
Lori and Eric
“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”- Colossians 3:15

Difficult changes as ALS is progressing

We have been adjusting to our schedules with school and sports and life this fall. However, over the last month or so, Eric has been having problems with coughing and once and a while choking on food or excess saliva. I have been concerned about this and asked Airway Oxygen to come out to the house and check Eric's breathing. They came out last Monday and measured his forced vital capacity (FVC) and it was at 16% which is very low. His NIF measured -13. They explained that a hospital would use this measurement to see if he could be weaned off of a ventilator if he was placed on one in an emergency situation. He would need to be at least -20 to be weaned. I want to be clear that this doesn't mean he needs to go right on a ventilator at this point as he is still breathing on his own. This was hard news for us to hear and last week we had some very emotional times taking about the fact that the disease is progressing in an area we do not want to see happen. Airway gave us a lot of equipment to put into our daily routine which would be like "push-ups" for his lungs. We are now using a nebulizor with duoneb medicine and a cough assist maching twice daily and are trying to incorporate a bipap into our day and eventually throughout the night. We are doing well with the first two, but struggling with getting the bipap to be tolerable right now. We have had some serious conversations the last two weeks about a feeding tube, a trache with ventilator and even funeral arrangements at 2:00 in the morning when Eric couldn't sleep. We really haven't discussed his wishes in these areas before and as much as I didn't want to talk about it, I realized that I don't want to be faced with it if he should pass away and not know where to start. We believe this is something every couple should discuss before it is time as well as having a will and trust in place, guardians for your kids, etc. because none of us know when it will be our last day on this earth. More importantly, do you know Jesus as your Savior? It brings our whole family so much peace to know where Eric is going when he dies and that he will have a new heavenly body without ALS. We recently read about this in 2 Corinthians 5: 1-9:
Our Heavenly Dwelling
1Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. 2Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, 3because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. 4For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. 5Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come. 6Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. 7We live by faith, not by sight. 8We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. 10For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.

This is so encouraging to us and our goal is to please Him while we are here on this earth. We had already committed to speaking at Celebrate Recovery group at KCC the night we got this news and we knew we had to testify to what God has done in our lives in so many powerful ways. We have decided to change some of our priorities in our week too. Eric has quit some weekly appointments we have been trying since the risk and time away from family outweighed the potential benefits. We want to spend our time with family and friends and be obedient to God when he asks us to do something in his name. We want to keep being in his Word and continue to grow.

We have told Zach about the changes that are happening and not as much with Maddie as Zach is so much more aware of what is going on. Eric was talking to Zach before bed the other night last week and Zach prayed for God to send him a good friend. Zach is doing so well at school, he was named Student of the Month in October and also made the basketball team. We decided to have a bunch of 7th graders over last Friday for a party and they had a blast. There were 14 boys here and they ate pizza, played video games and went through the woods behind our house on a "scare walk" that Eric asked some people to help throw together. It was a fun night!
This week we went to the ALS Clinic at Mary Freebed and were there for 4 hours meeting with all of the disciplines there (ALS Dr, Respiratory, Dietician, social worker, Physical therapy, and a pulmonologist) We retested his breathing and it actually improved to 18% this week so the treatments may be helping. The doctor also said Eric may not have the capacity to take the tests to get an accurate read and may be breathing better the tests show. At the clinic we talked more about a feeding tube and how to go about putting one in since his breathing is lower than they like to do it at. We have to be prepared that they may need to put a trache in during that procedure if his breathing becomes compromised. We really need to be prepared to have more care in place in case this is done. We had an X-ray taken of Eric's lungs to be sure there is no infection or bronchial problems, an ultrasound on his legs for the extreme swelling, CO2 level and other bloodwork done the next day at St Mary's and are waiting for the results. Lots of big decisions to be made so we need your prayers.
We are having Eric's family over tomorrow to celebrate Thanksgiving and Christmas (yes, Christmas) together and they are spending the night so we are really looking forward to that. Maddie and Grandma put the tree up together tonight. I love decorating for Christmas so I am excited to have the decorations out early.
My family received some more bad news today. My Grandpa just discovered he has colon cancer and my sister's CA125 number went up again to 74 I believe. They are both also in process of deciding what to do from here. I keep thinking about our eternal perspective in a world that is full of sickness. Fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary and what is unseen is ETERNAL!! Thanks for reading our very long update, it has been a while again and so much has been happening in the last few weeks. Despite the tough changes, we are really still doing remarkably well. Thanks so much for your prayers!!
We love you all,
Lori and Eric

A big thank you for a wonderful day

On October 17th, after months of planning and preperation by Eric's mom and many others, we went to spend the day in St Johns(Eric's hometown) for a dinner benefit and live auction at the VFW. It was a wonderful day spending time with family and old friends from Eric's childhood. We saw people we hadn't seen since our wedding 14 years ago. It really meant alot to us. We want to thank everyone who took the time to put this event together, who contributed items and their services and all those who came to the event. We are humbly overwhelmed by your love and generosity. We are so blessed and loved. There are so many people who are praying for us. This really means a lot to us when people tell us they are praying for our family. Eric's aunt and uncle got us a hotel in Owosso that night so we didn't have to drive home late which was fun for the kids and it allowed us to visit some more with his family on Sunday before we headed home.

Unfortunately, one or more of our family has been sick for the last 9 days in our house. We just can't shake it. Both of my kids are home sick today and I am feeling torn in three directions on who to take care of and to keep sickness away from Eric. This is really getting the best of me today. I was not handling it very well this morning and Eric and I both had to cry out to God to help us in our time of need. We could really use your prayers for good health. Eric's mom is coming to stay with us a few days this week to help us out, we have a meal delivered in our fridge for tonight so please don't feel like you need to come over right now if you could because we are being taken care of. Just pray for us any time you think of it this week. I know God will help us through this tough time.

God bless you!
Eric and Lori

Here is a link for a 6 minute video Lori's dad made of the event, just copy and paste the entire link below into your browser (I know there is an easier way to do this, but I can't figure it out right now)
http://animoto.com/play/D881bLRzM1lJlUtMmPh4bg?utm_campaign=share_email&utm_content=escape_link&utm_medium=email&utm_source=share_email

Sickness and Creepie Crawlies in the house

Please keep our family in your prayers for good health. We all have some type of cold symptoms right now and Zach had flu like symptoms last weekend but seems to be doing better now except a cough. My biggest concern right now is Eric's cough. He has been coughing quite often for the last week or so, especially at night. He has a hard time producing a good cough and it sometimes causes him to choke which is a scary feeling for all of us. We are having Airway Oxygen come out tomorrow to analyze what equipment we should have in our house to help Eric with his coughing and breathing.
Another issue in our house lately is spiders!!! I have attached a photo of the ginormous spider we had in our bedroom yesterday. I was so proud to have caught him so we could find out what kind he is to be sure they are not poisonous. The other spiders we have seen have only been about half this size or smaller. There is no way I would have attempted to catch him without Eric in the room. He was my eyes and pep talker. I hate spiders! I think most people agree with this. I hope they will find another residence for the winter!
Today was just beautiful and refreshing with the sun shining! Zach played his last football game in Muskegon and ended the season undefeated. It will be nice to have him home after school for a bit, at least until Basketball starts!
Hope you were able to enjoy the sunshine today and your families are all staying healthy!
Lori

When God moves you on...

If you would have asked Eric five years ago if we would ever leave Wellspring Church, he would have said, "You’re crazy for asking me that question. Of course not, I would never leave! I love the body of believers here. I have purpose serving in this church. I have developed some of the best friendships I've ever had in my life at this church! I enjoy working with the Pastor and the staff and leadership to accomplish God' work. How or why would we ever leave Wellspring?"

Well, the answer to that question is, "Only when God moves you on." I know that this might come as a shock to many people reading this. I like most people don't like change. But, somehow, during change God allows us to see his hand at work. We will try to explain what God has been doing in our lives since July. We have felt God telling us for a while He wants to move us to a church in our neighborhood where we moved last November . We thought, we just moved to a new area, new neighborhood, new house, new schools even a new grocery store, etc. , why would we change one of the only things we knew as well. This July, Eric and I both had a peace that God was moving us on and the scary thing was we didn’t know where or what that meant for our family. We have been at our church for 6 years and It has been a huge part of our lives and has brought us closer to God and taught us and allowed us to grow in our relationship with Christ. The church has done so much for us and we have been blessed. We have had a harder time getting to the church on time and attending functions because of the disease and living farther away. Our church has grown so much over the years, we have started to feel disconnected because we were not able to get involved like we used to due to physical limitations, distance and timing. It has been hard for Eric to know where he could serve after not being on staff any longer for two years. This has been extremely difficult for Eric as he had such a passion for others at the church and serving in his position on staff. Also, We thought it might be a good idea for Zach to get involved with a youth group over here so he could make friends in a new school and invite his friends to church and youth events in Grandville. It may not seem like we moved far, but in this busy world we live in, an extra 20-30 minutes makes a big difference to some people. We really want to reach out to our neighbors here to share Christ with them and we have been so blessed being able to do this recently. We want to use our gifts and our home to serve God and bring him glory. Everything we have belongs to Him!
We have visited many churches in this area and found a small church that meets in Maddie’s school about a block from here called Life Church and their mission is to lead others to become fully devoted followers of Christ. The Pastor lives about a mile from us and actually has an accessible home with an elevator (what are the odds of that? – that’s God). He visits us weekly and prays with us and we are discovering many ways that we can serve there even in a wheelchair. Zach has started youth group there and met a 7th grader who ended up on his football team whose family has been a blessing to us. I started my Bible Study this fall and knew no one except a woman who introduced herself and said she is from Life Church which really touched me. We started a Life group at our house and we are doing a study called Prodigal God that looks at the parable of the prodigal son in a way we have never thought of before and so far it has really been teaching us about the way of self discovery and the way of righteousness. Both are lost and far from God. We know God orchestrates these groups and both couples in our group have been touched personally by someone they know with ALS.

We have seen so many times how God is at work in our lives and how he uses others or circumstances to speak to us and recently we have been shown how God has used us to speak to others about who He is and our faith in Him that gets us through tough times. Our blog is one way that we can do this. I am always surprised to find out who has come across our blog and been uplifted in some way. Mostly people with ALS or who have a family member with ALS, but recently a woman I know ran into me at a grocery store on the other end of town I just happened to stop at the same time she was there. She was going to have brain surgery from a tumor they had found that week and said she thought of our family and what we were going through when she heard that and then here I was! That is God! She asked me how we did it and I told her it was from the Lord and his grace. We always have opportunity to be a testimony to Him and this brings Him glory!

I know us leaving our old church is really hard for some people to understand, but we really feel that God has moved us on. It has been very difficult for us to leave and trust God and we will miss worshipping with many of you as you have been so supportive to us over the years. In my Bible Study lecture last week I heard the leader say “Following God means trusting his leading in other people’s lives. We need to encourage others to follow Jesus no matter what that looks like or means. “ This was in reference to John Chapter 1 where Jesus came as John the Baptist prophesied and John the Baptist’s disciples left him to follow Jesus. John stayed right where he was doing what God wanted him to do. He didn’t follow them because that wasn’t God’s plan for him. I’m sure he was sad that the people he had been spending so much time with left him but he trusted God’s leading in their lives. Jesus asked the disciples what they wanted and then he said come spend the day with me. God wants us to trust Him and obey Him. I personally would like an itinerary of what that looks like or means as I am a planner and like to know what my day looks like. I have learned as a caregiver that my day never lines up with what I think it should be and my to-do list is never done. This week in Bible Study, the teaching leader said “God wants us to hand over our planner and He wants to give us a notebook to fill with His words and His plans”. Wow, that was a tough one for me to hear but I know that’s what He wants from me.

Fall has been very busy for us with Zach in Football (#34 for Grandville 78ers). Their team is 5-0. Maddie is playing Soccer (#5 for AYSO Bumblebees) and scored her first goal yesterday. We had the ALS Walk last week and God gave us the most beautiful morning after days of freezing cold and rain. It was a glorious day and we were so blessed to have almost 100 people come out to walk with our team. Thank you to Texas Roadhouse and all the other vendors who donated our lunch. The walk was downtown Grand Rapids this year and we walked right along the river and saw many of the Art Prize exhibits which were still down there. My dear cousins from Tennessee (Lauren and Avery are pictured above with Zach) actually drove up here for the walk and stayed with us for a few days which was so much fun! We were blessed and helped the ALS Association raise money and awareness for ALS and really appreciate everyone who walked or donated to the walk.

Today, I was able to go to an ALSA sponsored caregiver’s conference with my friend Erin whose husband also has ALS and we met some wonderful people and heard two wonderful speakers, Cecil Murphy and Shelly Beach speak about caregivers challenges and encourage us to keep doing what we do for our loved ones. It was a wonderful conference and we were fed lunch donated by Fazoli’s and pampered with some great door prizes as well. I was so excited to win a night for our family to stay at Great Wolf Lodge in Traverse City and water park passes but not half as excited as my kids were!!!
Other great news we got today is that my sister’s CA125 level has gone down to 25! Those of you who follow her blog can access her link on the right of our blog. We are so excited to hear this wonderful news as her battle with Cancer has been so tough but they can clearly see God’s hand at work in their lives. Praise God!!!

Lastly, we love to hear your comments either via email or by clicking the comment tab at the bottom of each entry. Many of you have said you have tried to post and it gets erased so you give up and I know that is discouraging so here is a quick “comments 101”
Click on comments and type your comment in the box, before you hit post comment, you either need to sign in (create a Google account if you don’t have a sign-in) or if you don’t want to do this, click anonymous before you post. If you want us to know who wrote the comment, just sign your name in the comment box. The comments are then emailed to us and then we publish them as soon as we get them. We are so encouraged by your comments. It’s kind of like getting mail, the good kind, not bills!

Keep following Jesus!!
Lori and Eric Fox

Thank you for your continued prayers, as the weather gets colder we will be home quite often and would love to visit with you. Our door is always open!

A Gimpse of God at Work

I am always amazed when I look back and see God's hand at work. Here's a story that is sure to build your faith.

THE BIG PICTURE OF GOD AT WORK

This is a story that I have seen unfold over the course of three years, but one that comes around full circle. It starts out with me, Eric, when I was on staff at Wellspring Church. One day I took a phone call for the secretary right at closing time. On the other end of the line was this lady, Cheryl, who was looking for churches to check out in the area. As she and her husband, Steve, were having difficulties in their marriage and problems in their family, she thought it was time to get back to church. I shared with Cheryl that she would need to try Wellspring for a while to see if it would be a good fit for her and her family. I told her of all the different ministries and areas that they could get plugged in. After attending for three weeks Steve accepted Jesus Christ as his savior. His life drastically changed.

Steve was on fire for the Lord, wanting to get involved and help out wherever he could. It didn't take long before Cheryl and he started doing short term mission work in Mexico and also on the streets of Chicago. After a year and half of this kind of outreach, God spoke loudly to Steve that there was a need right in the streets of Grand Rapids.

Steve took an early retirement at GM to get involved on the streets of Grand Rapids and ministering to the homeless. So in January of 2009 they began. Cheryl and he and a few other couples made some soup and coffee and collected blankets, coats and gloves and went downtown and passed out the supplies to the homeless who live on the streets and under the bridges.

One of the homeless men that they first met wouldn't even talk to them. His name was Scott. They kept going back week after week giving him supplies and praying over him. Soon Scott came out from the bridge having enough energy to walk downtown to the church on Division Ave. Soon after coming to the church week after week, Scott was led by Steve and accepted Jesus Christ as his Savior. Not long after this I came downtown with my family to help serve.

After meeting Scott and praying with him several times I too struck up a friendship and bond. As it turned out Scott was slowly dying of cancer living under the bridges. Not long after he was diagnosed with Cancer, the Guiding Light Mission was able to get him some medical assistance and treatment. It was touch and go for a while there as all of us who served at the inner city church prayed for Scott's health. Finally, Scott was given a clean bill of health by the doctors. And now he is on his own and has his own apartment. Today, when you see Steve and Scott talking on the street you see a miracle of love and dignified respect for one another.

In my conversation with Scott today he would tell you that he was content to lay under the bridge and die. But, because of the consistency of a few good men bringing him food and supplies, and praying over him, he got a sense that somebody cared for him.

Now this isn't the full circle, there is more to the story. Steve and the rest of the servants working in the inner city church had been praying for more supplies. There has been a large need been for clothes and shoes that fit bigger men, more XL and XXL type clothes. After praying for three weeks the prayers were soon answered. I had met a man two years earlier while getting a treatment for Lou Gehrig's disease. His name is CB. I had asked him to drive me downtown to an appointment that I had on Saturday. CB picked me up at my house, loaded me into the van and off we went. Little did he know that my appointment was to serve the homeless.When we got there CB met Steve they realized that they knew each other from the GM plant where they both had worked. CB ended up that day walking the streets with Steve talking with the homeless and praying with many hurting people.

Now here's the answer to the prayers for the clothes.

Because the plant at GM had closed CB was still there helping to dismantle shelving units and clean up all the locker rooms. Normally GM has a strict policy to throw out any items in the lost and found that have not been claimed. They do not donate items in order to not show favoritism to one group over another. But because CB was so compelled and moved at the incredible need of the homeless right in GM's back yard, he asked his supervisors if it would be all right to bag up all the hundreds of shoes, boots and articles of clothing that had been left behind and take it all to the mission. Because of his relationship with his boss they agreed. CB called me and asked me if Steve and the inner city mission would have a need for these items.

CB had no idea that we had been praying for clothing.

Five truckloads later, the mission now has more than enough XL and XXL clothing for the upcoming winter season.And in one of the bags of clothing Steve found a large amount of money from the guys and gals at GM that had taken up an offering. Arn't God's people so amazing!

When we are faithful in the little things like answering a phone call, or serving in the mission and praying for someone in need, God is faithful and just to answer our prayers.