I was thinking I would wait to post until after the funeral, but I am not sleeping much and writing helps me process things. I think it will help all of you to know when you come to the visitation. I want to first say thank you for all of the love, support, prayers, food and notes of encouragement. Most of the notes all have encouraged me to stay focused on the blessing in this tragedy. I am so comforted that Eric is in heaven right now and when I get sad, I have to turn my thoughts to Eric in heaven seeing God face to face hearing "well done, good and faithful servant", singing at the top of his lungs praises to our God, dancing like a crazy man like he did when I met him in college 19 1/2 years ago. (He was one of those that you had to back up and make a circle around so he wouldn't knock you down), Playing hockey, football, basketball or baseball and encouraging the whole team, Eating the most savory of foods (by mouth), meeting and becoming instant friends with Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Moses, Paul, John, David (oh, to imagine) and all the prophets and saints and his friends and family that have passed before him, laughing that laugh that we all miss, running circles around everyone in his new body, and seeing colors and things we can't even begin to imagine.
This has been a very emotional week as you can imagine, but I am already feeling his mercies new each morning and sensing the peace that passes all understanding. The day Eric went to be with the Lord, I didn't think I could possibly get through it, I was in shock and disbelief and then I had guilt and if only I did this or that and I thought it would take months or years for God to get me through these things. I need to tell you that I know it will take a long time to really stop hurting in my grief, but God has taken so much of my burdens and given me so much comfort that I couldn't have even imagined that came by the very next morning. Every day is such a gift to each of us and his mercies are new in the morning. This is the way that Eric lived each day and I will continue to trust in God for my strength.
May God's peace and comfort encircle all of you who dearly loved Eric too,